home field advantage.

Home. What a concept.


Being back in Kansas City has admittedly put me into a sort of daze, a spell if you will. How easy it was to step back into old routine.


Wake. Coffee. Eat. Study. Coffee. Eat. Study. Eat. Sleep.


Maybe something is askew inside of me but being home again made me see life in two ways simultaneously. At the same time I want to travel and to stay. I want to run and I want to sit. I want to wander and I want to dig-in for the long haul. Truly my heart is conflicted.


Within this short blog post and among this conflict of emotions I find a blissful tension. I realize that no matter where I am, home or away, nothing will ever satisfy me except the love of my true Father in Heaven. In Him my Hope rests firm. By Him I am loved and redeemed. By Him I have joy. By Him I am given mercy. In Jesus my identity becomes one not yearning for approval and acceptance but one who is loved and saved. In this is freedom and peace.


Truly nothing but Jesus will satisfy the hearts of men. Nothing. Void of Jesus there is no hope.